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Deepavali Break

I hate this feeling on a Sunday night, after a long ,well-deserved break, because I really dont want to go back to reality.

Anyways, my life has been quite repetitive recently, and it just feels like I got nothing much to blog about, besides still trying to get through degree life, work, college, occasional mini outings with my family and yy, everything else pretty much feels stagnant.

Sometimes, its just because I dont have inspiration to write. Not like how i used to at least.

Well,Im just glad to have this one week break, much needed i must say, and the best part, Wednesday and Saturday were public holidays, which means no need for me too work on those days. It almost never happens this way.

I cleared my room, all my accessories, clothes, paperwork, etc and it made me feel great. Plus, my sister was also at home, which feels nostalgic because for the past 4 years+ We were rarely at home for holidays at the same time due to college.

I just had the time of my life, having some alone time, went out with yy, organizing most of my things, and just relaxing, I slept alot. I watched Scandal, as recommended by Melissa, and though the storyline is great and the drama is appealing, I couldnt continue watching it because I don’t ship the ”main couple” because its just so wrong on so many levels, and I find it really repulsive. I mean, i dont find it ”sweet” because EXCUSE ME, Sir you are married with 3 children, so please keep your pants zipped. And it was getting in the way of the main plot. Therefore i did not continue. I stopped at Season 2 lol.

Its a good show, I love so many characters, just not the relationship of those.

Okay before all the fans and shippers go berserk on me, let me just reiterate that I dont like it, and im not gonna continue watching it anymore, and this will be the last time im discussing it.

Moving on, guess I should stop here and go to bed, its 1240am now, and my body clock is messed up because of the unhealthy pattern i had this week.

sigh, so much to do after today, gotta catch up on my notes, start studying and MPU projects, and look! its November already. Where did all the time go anyway.Its halloween next week by the way. Movie night with siblings! πŸ™‚

Lots of challenges ahead, and i just cant wait for this year to be over. Cause of some work reasons. I hope to hear a good answer and not what i imagine soon, Im relying on your promise. 😦 I hope you come back.

Up to fate.*crossing my fingers*

-kw-

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Rough Times

Turbulence, turbulence everywhere at the moment.

One way or another, it was bad, everything around seems to be falling apart and it really tested my endurance and patience.

It kept happening , issue after issue, there would be obstacles, big or small.

For some reason, it was just so tense, and i just feel so damn stressed, almost to my breaking point. Everything just wouldn’t go right.

It annoyed it to a certain extend, and i should really work on stress management.

This had been the most challenging time in my life. It wasn’t like THE most tensed up, craziest, thing that happened, but it was just so many issues all happening at one time, and the magnitude became massive.

It really hurts, it does. And this has never happened before, i couldnt even get myself to express it much because i worry too damn much about it.

But now, even though it is not all solved yet, im just so thankful that things are getting better now. I feel like it’s a test or something, you know those annoying things that life throws at you in the face and asks you to solve it. yeah.

But through the process, i’ve learnt alot. And that’s all that matters i guess.

Hoping for better days ahead. I. Can. Do. This.

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What’s going on

Aside from that, i guess i should also update on what’s going on lately.

well, degree’s fine, meet some new friends, getting used to the classes and knowing which to pay attention and which to not haha. Some Rotaract activities going on lately, and im making an effort to try my best in contributing as much as i can. ( hopefully it all works out ) Also being alert of how i need to step up and actually make an effort to study already, because i really cant afford to slack for degree, i wanna do good.

Got my textbooks from UK that day, meaning no excuses for anything about not studying etc, and there was a hassle of having an error and stuff but im glad it’s resolved right now.

My work has been fine, getting used to it as well and maybe trying to enjoy it sometimes.

Learnt a new principle – IDGAF principle which works out well most of the time. credits to Sureene and Flocho for this amazing concept haha.

i recently got a second piercing and it’s been alittle bit.. nasty because of all the infections and pus coming out here and there, its stabilizing soon now πŸ˜€ I did it behind my mom’s back actually, but she noticed it the other day and didnt comment much about it. ( phewww because i thought she would flip out )

So yeah, fixed routine, classes classes, work work and week in week out time just goes by like that, just like water. And i guess it would be like that for the next 3 years for me.

Gotta save up for lots of things at the moment. Which is not a bad thing but there’s quite a number of commitments so.. gotta tie the belt around the waist tighter for all these commitments!

and yeah, that’s basically what i’ve been up to lately. At one point i didnt blogged anywhere at all, but im coming back again. my dayre

just a heads up, i plan to blog on some craft reviews and maybe even some crafts or recipes πŸ˜€ cant wait for that.

meanwhile im just trying to complete all my notes from classes so that i can actually sort things out well.

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Is it worth it

I had to rant about this ( i had a semi-rant on my dayre already haha) , a friend of mine asked me that day “do you think what you’re doing is worth it?”

it had me thinking a bit.

Sometimes i do get upset when people give me weird expressions and they ask me why cant i just NOT do it. Sigh, and they’ll tell me how they just spend their holidays enjoying life and as if im torturing myself willingly

well, i dont think these people will ever understand and i dont even bother explaining to them, but i know that what im doing, it will benefit me in the future, and one day, i’ll be glad and grateful i chose to do it. Anyway, right now in my shoes, i dont think i have the capacity to reject the offers, i can, but i dont want to because i need it to help out financially, i sure as hell wont wanna burden my parents, and seeing them work so hard for the past few years, just makes me want to strive further for ever.

i work for extra allowance, and people tell me wont Β that mean you have alot to use now? NO. i still spend the same way i used to, and yes i save up for my future.

this helps them and it helps me and it helps the children and teenagers i teach, so its a win-win situation to me.

So why not?

Its weird because while doing this job, i feel i like i somehow get to still hold on to school life and still know what’s going on in the highschool syllabuses. It’s enriching to me, and i just feel like teaching the kids, seeing them improve can be one of the most satisfying feelings ever.

yes it can be tiring and frustrating at times, and when my student(s) dont put their hearts in doing their work it does upset me but in the end, it will be worth it, and to answer your question my dear friend,

Yes, it is worth it to me. πŸ™‚

-kw-

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Days

The days when i work has easily taken over as the days i dislike the most in a week.

For now i dislike Saturdays and Mondays because those days are when i have lots of stuff to do. Work included.

Ever since a year or 2 ago, ive started disliking Saturdays alot because i had to do my job and i practically cannot do anything on saturdays in terms of Rotaract activities, trainings, anything interesting that would USUALLY fall on saturdays, i wouldnt be able to make it.Sadly.

But this is a job, and i need to be responsible. I feel bad having to reject so many things that fall on saturday mornings, especially rotaract activities as sometimes they really require my presence, but i just HAD to reject them, all of them.

However, i dont think i can avoid this for long, as i heard that there will be classes here and there soon later in degree that would fall on saturdays 😦 by then i would have to reschedule everything, and it will be a big fat mess..

It worries me sometimes, but i just hope and pray that those classes would be on saturday afternoons or nights even i dont mind, just please dont clash with my work :(( and also hope it would just be temporary…

I hate worrying about the future, but i always do.Who doesnt, right?

Mondays are okay, except for the fact that i have full day classes and i would have to rush home for a class. That makes me a bit.. frustrated. other than that, its fine.

In a nutshell, i do not hate my job, i just hate the timing, i wish i could have more time to do more activities that fall on saturday mornings.

sighh, i really hope i can see how am i coping in my future.

Hope there isnt much of a mess.

 

-kw-

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I quite like my job

To be honest, i quite like my job, i like what im doing and i really like my way of teaching my students.

I work part time as a tuition teacher to 2 girls, one in form 1 and the other in form 2. It sounds like a big task at first, and in the beginning i wasnt very sure if i can do it well..

Nonetheless, i pulled through and thanks to my mom who helped me get the job, im not regretting it at all.

I teach maths to the girl in form 1 and BM and english to the girl in form 2.

Im not going to lie but i really put alot of effort in these jobs, i researched, find resources, and basically put myself in their shoes thinking,”if i were a student, how will i want a teacher to teach me?” and so i worked hard as well. I fight for my students, and i realized i actually quite like teaching them.

I wasnt a super-smart-straight-As student when i was their age, but i know i definitely tried my best for everything, especially in languages and math, i was quite good at those subjects.

The pay for my job is quite good, and always always, i tried my very best to give back to my students as to what they deserve, ” information and skills” Im really not afraid to passed down everything i know to them, or even for them to surpass me. To me if that happens, it will only meant that i succeeded as a teacher.

The most rewarded part of my job isnt the pay, its when my students come and tell me ” Teacher! i improved in my test!” and ” Teacher i jumped from a D to a B after your classes”..

These are the things that made me super proud and wanna fight for them even more.

And although its not all flowers and butterflies, in the end, i gotta admit, i quite love what i do.I really hope i can continue teaching them for as long as i can, and i also dont mind more teaching more students.

For more Inquiries do email me : cheongkw95@gmail.com πŸ™‚

-kw-