A letter to my Grandpa

Dear Gong Gong,

I’m officially 19 now! time flies doesn’t it? I really miss you although you’ve been gone for so many years.

Sometimes I do think and imagine, what it’s like if you were still around.

They say that you loved me a lot, and I was really close to you, I was at the time your favorite and you loved to carry me a lot. I was only 5 years old, but i vaguely remember some memories, like how you used to always give me sweets despite my mother’s constant nagging about it. Also how you’ll try to ‘save’ me from punishments from her too.

I didn’t understood when they told me you’re gone. I asked my aunt, ” why are you crying?” but she just hugged me and continued to cry even harder. I didn’t know the meaning of death, nor did I know you were suffering. If only I did, I would’ve tried to make you happier, even just cheer you up a little to make the pain and suffering a little easier.

I remember daddy carrying me to see you and he asked me to call you once again. I dont even remember when was the last time I saw you. I was too young to remember.

As I grew older, naturally i grew to get used to everything. To be honest I didn’t really fell anything about it, until recently.

This year, I finally visited your grave after so many years. I hope you were happy to see how much I grew. I’m a big girl now, as tall as mommy already, and in college. In a few more years, i’ll be working and hopefully I get to start my own family.

How would things be if you were here? Everyone would be happier right? The house would be more lively.Would I have made the mistakes I’ve made? would you have guided me through all the silly things I did? Maybe daddy and mommy wouldn’t have to worry so much, maybe Po Po would be happier. I could turn out to be more spoiled, I don’t know, but I hope you’ll still be proud of me.

Maybe you would’ve liked the food I made, or even the cupcakes and pastries, maybe you could’ve brought us out for supper, or maybe you could even bring me to school for my volleyball training when Daddy’s busy. I imagine all these, but in reality, it’s just not the same. It’s interesting to imagine.

Nonetheless, I knew you are a great grandpa and the cool kind too.

If only you could meet yy, would you be overprotective of me? I wished I could’ve seen your reaction when you found out.

Well, it’s been 14 years now, life still creeps at it’s own pace.

I wonder if you’re watching over me all the time. I know daddy misses you everyday, as he still mentions about it sometimes, and I can see the look in his eyes.

But don’t worry about us, Gong Gong, We’re fine and happy. Small challenges wont bring us down. πŸ™‚


Tribute to a friend’s Pet

One of my buddies is having a hard time now, i believe her pet dog of 17 years is passing away any time soon.

I just hope everything is going well for her. Ive seen that dog numerous times everytime i go to her house, and i remember how ganas(fierce) it always was, haha..

He’s dear to her and her family and i know they’re going thru a hard time now.

Whenever it happens, i just pray that he will go in peace.

Honestly i dont know how to comfort them,but i really feel sad hearing about him.

So this is a tribute to her 17 year old dog, Duffy.

I hope everything will get better, and just take care of yourself, he will never leave you guys and i know that you guys loved him as much as he loved you guys.

Cheer up, girl! we’ll be here , always.




We were all born to die, we just dont know when.

Days ago, one of our country’s most prominent and heroic figure had passed on. To be honest, i do not know him personally, nor do i follow his cases alot, but i know for a fact i’ve been hearing his name all my life. He has always been one of my father’s favourite politicians.

After hearing about his passing,(Β and also not forgetting his loyal assistant ) I started reading about them. No doubt, he was an amazing person. Yes, it is a truly lost for our nation, a loop hole that can never be fully covered, but looking back at all the deeds he has done, this man has lived a fruitful life. For all he has done, i can only say that his parents has raised him to be what a person should be.

Im just a teenager, still doing my A-levels, planning to pursue a law degree, im definitely not actively involved in the politics of my country, but i do know whats happening, and what we,as the people are fighting for.

This man is an inspiration to all, a true definition of a Malaysian, a man with principles, one of a kind.

His legacy will carry on, and as a law student, he shall be an inspiration to me.

Thank you Sir Karpal Singh, for serving this lifetime, Your deeds will never be forgotten, and thank you for fighting for justice.


Already Gone

I got the title from one of Kelly Clarkson’s song.

Recently there have been many sad events happening amongst my friends and from time to time these things happen but how long will it take for us to remember how vulnerable and fragile life actually is before we carry on with our lives as usual again,moving on?

I was at my college’s music club meeting that day and a senior was performing this song with so much effort and soul,it made me tear up.

Because the song was so appropriate, as one of our close friends had lost someone very dear to her.By the way,the song selection was a total coincidence.

My friend lost a part of her life and childhood,and a family lost a father,a husband, a brother and an uncle.He was ill,and he was quite young.

And just yesterday,my boy lost his cousin,also due to sickness,he was still in college.

Though i do not know these people that passed,the way their presence affected their close ones who are close to others,its really at large.

The sadness kicks in as long as you have a heart.The solemnness spreads like wildfire and before long,it will fade,and people will move on.

What im trying to say is that,life is so so petty, as how William Shakespear said in his poem Life’s Brief Candle,

“Life’s but a walking shadows, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more; it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.”
You’ll never know how and when you’re going to die,or even the people around you.Things just happen unexpectedly,out of the blue,without preparation.
But that;s just life right? after all,we were all born to die one day.We just dont know when.
I want to send a message here, Appreciate every moment,or at least try to.Appreciate your loved ones,be a good person,be the best you can,Life is full of chances, its okay to fall,utilize everything you have, remember people,dont forget them,and hopefully we will not be forgotten..
Do whatever you have to do,before its too late.
To my dear friends who are going through a hard time,and to their relatives, I send my regards to you all, stay strong, and i hope you will get through it as a family.

SPM results + Piano Exam

This is an update of Β my SPM results and Piano Exams that i went through in the past 2 months πŸ™‚

SO i did not score my satisfactory target of 7/8As but i did score my expectant target of 6 instead. I was quite sad about it but at least i didnt get any Cs or Ds as my trials,So its quite good for me actually.I was aiming for my Add maths to score an A- and then i’ll get my 7th A but too bad.Its a B+

Considering my overall performance,i cant really complain,i mean i improved quite alot in terms of my average score,but i did not manage to score one more A to my satisfactory.Looking on the bright side,at least im better than many people right?And also i’ve tried my best. So for that I am grateful.


So i scored As for all my core subjects.and got B+s and Bs for my other 5 subjects.especially the Sciences.I kind of expected Biology to score an A- though but turns out to be a B+.Considering Bio quite hard to score,I should be happy i guess?

I guess my science subjects are inevitable since i was never a science person.

So Congratulations to me anyway.

Also, I want to congratulate all my friends,Good or Bad results,it doesnt matter,Now our life has just begun.No need to feel sad and dont be arrogant about it if its excellent because this paper doesnt determine your whole future.

For now,i wish everyone Good Luck in furthering their studies πŸ™‚ and for those who are not planning to,Good luck in everything you’re pursuing,Life starts now.

I was quite depressed, i wouldnt lie, about the results, but after a week or two,i got over it.moving forward now!

So on April 24th,I went for my Piano exam retake.

I was really really nervous in the beginning and i screwed up a little in the beginning sections.ugghhh but after that,it mostly went smooth..

Hope i pass la.even if i dont ( hope not) i dont think i would retake it anymore.My schedule is PACKED and so is my piano teacher’s.

SInce now im done with piano exams for good,I just want to give a little shoutout to my piano teacher who has taught me and my sister for about 15 years πŸ™‚ it was a long long journey and i know she knows us very well.

Thanks for everything,Miss Wendy! I grew up with you and you’d always listen to all our problems and advice us on them and also give cool ideas for food and etc.

So many memories with her,i will cherish them.