Moving on

Moving on, i finally get to fully concentrate on degree and everything else that makes me happy.

right now, i feel that i need to change some perspectives in my life. Though i really wish i could have a getaway all to myself or maybe with 1 or 2 buddies to soul search and look for the meaning in life or some sort like that, perhaps to even just calm my nerves and think about what i really want to achieve in life, its just impossible for me to do so at this moment.

Well, all i can do is make use of what has been given to me.

Its mid-week and next week onwards, most colleges will start again, including for yy and my sister, and i also realize that most of my friends have already started college these 2 weeks again as well. Everyone’s gonna be busy bees.

Just as i wanted to blog about how August is already here, August is already ending.Can you believe how fast time flies?

And in no time, i’ll be done with 1st year degree, and the 2nd and the 3rd then CLP, and its work work work. It can be said its a good thing that time passes fast because sometimes you just want it to be done and over with.The most important thing is as long as we cherish the moments and experiences in between, any journey regardless of length or period will be worth while.

Thanks to some friends, i’ve been learning alot about myself and what i really want to achieve in my life. Sometimes we can come up with rash decisions, which can be really burdensome to the people around you, and the desire for it is so tenacious, just because you dont want to be left behind among your peers. 

After a long consideration and lots of thinking, i realized, i dont actually want that, all i wanted was just to ”fit in” whereas im already perfectly doing so. And there are no boundaries to other options that may be much more suited to you WITHOUT the burden of the people around you, especially your parents.

Therefore, my advice is that you sit down or even before you sleep, just give yourself a pat on your back and think, Yes i can be whoever i choose to be, without needing to have what others do. Just go with the flow and never force things upon commence.

try your best in everything.

No harm wishing for it though, if you get it in the end. good for you, if you dont, dont beat yourself up for it, there WILL be other options.

Back to the update, well, last week has been a tiring week for me, time passes much faster when classes start, maybe its because of the journey to college and back. I dont know. But its does feel faster.

For now, Im motivated to do more things, concentrate on my studies, read more novels, draw, learn new words,my work, editing, Rotaract activties, Hence i might have nothing much to blog about since it may seem repetitive.

Yes i am thankful for everything i have now..

Sometimes i wish there’s an automatic system in my brain that checklists everything i have to do and have not yet done and also alerts me about deadlines.

Too bad, for now i have to use my trusty old notebook!

Good luck in degree and college to all my peers.



Nail Art 3 – Tangy Orange

I noticed i didnt really have a matte orange nail colour in my collection, and so i got one!

My intention was to find a pastel-ish softer orange colour but when i was at Elianto ( they had a sale on their nail polishes that time ) those on sale we were limited in colour. Hence i only managed to pick something closest.

This colour is indeed orange-y at most times, but its closer to red and in my opinion its quite nice.However im still finding the pastel orange-y colour to add to my collection

rarely seeing people using this colour.
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Also, i added a small touch to my ring finger so that it doesnt become TOO obnoxious by using a soft peachy pink colour and a red heart shape on top 🙂



This nail colour lasted me for a good 2 weeks ( could even be a longer time but i removed it after 2 weeks and it was still in quite good condition ) and maybe because its new, but it lasted somehow longer than my usual nail colours.



The world

Its upsetting, seeing all these unfortunate events happening around the world. I believe it affects almost everyone indirectly.

I just wish everything will be back to normal, and no more fighting, no more wars, no more religions hating each other, no more human error-ed disasters, no more pollution, no more corruption.

I still believe world peace is attainable and achievable, and i still believe in humanity. Why cant humans just set aside differences and just see each other as a person.?




Nail Art 2 – Cool colours and Polka dots

Another attempt at nail art. i just used a dotting tool to dot them polka dots 😀


excuse the untidiness around the sides,it looks legit somehow haha.CYMERA_20140716_154715



Sadly, the polish started to peel for my first 3 fingers of each hand because i was always doing the dishes and other chores :/ Also i was using really cheap nail polish for the lavender colour, which explains alot.


It only lasted like 3-4 days, plus the thick layers make it easier to peel as well. I didnt really want to remove the polish on my ring finger and pinky because it was still beautifully in tact.


Hence, i borrowed this silky silvery blue colour from my sister :3 its called Alice Blue by Elianto and its a really nice colour.






Degree begins

Im officially starting my degree tomorrow and ughhhhh im sooo not excited.. besides the fact that i get to see my buds again, other than that, please just give me back my sleep 😦

Time passed by fast, i was JUST getting into the holiday mood and BOOM COLLEGE AGAIN.

I feel so sad right now.. Just 3 weeks plus after my Alevels and i gotta start on degree already. I dont like this..

Seriously regretting starting my course in July now instead of September, WE HAD AN OPTION. But my close friends decided on starting earlier at first, so i registered considerably early,if not one of the earliest ones to, and when they decide they might want to start in Sept, it was too late for me to change, so i kinda made them ”keep their word”

Poor Su and I were so reluctant to start early but due to other factors,( parents) we had to start early anyway.

Im not used to the schedule anymore, im not nervous just reluctant, because trainrides during rush hours are just crayyyy

Especially during the Ramadhan month,(which is now)so everyone would be rushing home at that time.

and the FOOD around my college aint that nice either, and some are not always available, its a daily dilemma.( at least to us )

Other than that, meh, i dont know if i should feel happy or sad about starting degree already.

Pros are :

1.at least a little motivation to do something instead of lazing around the house all day?
2.get to see my college friends again! :DD
3.more discipline in my life i suppose ( waking up early )
4.somewhat more ”occupied”

Cons are :

1.not really in the mood to make new friends…
2.waking up earlyy (i dont like it )
3.train rides during rush hours ( craayyyyy)
4.well.. textbooks?
5.enduring classes
6.lesser available days to go out with friends ( it slowly reduces further near exams)

I just had to make the cons more hehe. But perhaps i shouldnt feel so miserable, contrasting with the pros, also the fact that i get to have an education.

Will be able to adjust back soon, right now my bodyclock is quite messed up.

Anyways, at least i can look forward to other things, like rotaract club activities, seeing my friends, plus i still have a few outings to go! and also starting early means classes are more leisure!

at least i get some off days in between for now, unlike during alevels ughh..

so yeah, here’s to going back to college to start my degree, and other better things.




We were all born to die, we just dont know when.

Days ago, one of our country’s most prominent and heroic figure had passed on. To be honest, i do not know him personally, nor do i follow his cases alot, but i know for a fact i’ve been hearing his name all my life. He has always been one of my father’s favourite politicians.

After hearing about his passing,( and also not forgetting his loyal assistant ) I started reading about them. No doubt, he was an amazing person. Yes, it is a truly lost for our nation, a loop hole that can never be fully covered, but looking back at all the deeds he has done, this man has lived a fruitful life. For all he has done, i can only say that his parents has raised him to be what a person should be.

Im just a teenager, still doing my A-levels, planning to pursue a law degree, im definitely not actively involved in the politics of my country, but i do know whats happening, and what we,as the people are fighting for.

This man is an inspiration to all, a true definition of a Malaysian, a man with principles, one of a kind.

His legacy will carry on, and as a law student, he shall be an inspiration to me.

Thank you Sir Karpal Singh, for serving this lifetime, Your deeds will never be forgotten, and thank you for fighting for justice.





Well, as you can see, Shit’s about to get real. When these magical sharpies appear, you know that there’s notes to be done, and also one thing, STUDY.

I’m pretty happy now that my engine has started running, i was suddenly motivated, and really inspired not only to study, but to do something about my life. Previously i had this thought about how my life is so stagnant and not creative at all. I used to do so much art and projects in high school and now that im in college, it all went stale.

Finally I found this urge and push and i said to myself ” im gonna make my time worth while.”

Its about damn time now isnt it?

Anyways, so yes im going to continue doing what i have to do, and i’ll be working hard for my final A2 exams in May from now on. All the best to me and my mates!


Looks about right! Its amazing what inspiration and motivation can do to the productivity of a person.

Loving it.