The Future I Choose for myself

From a very young age ,almost all of us have been pressured by our parents to be someone successful in the future right? i mean that’s at least what i’ve been through almost all my life.Go to school,study hard do well in exams,get them scholarships,(or at least try to) go to college,get a degree,choose a profession,graduate (with the square hat and robe lol) and there~ we will live a somewhat ”comfortable” life right?

Anyways,I didnt do too bad during my government school days,up until highschool, i always tried to keep it up,though i got involved in like some sports and busy with art club this and that,in the end,it all comes down to those final exam results that my parents would keep track on.so yea.

At the moment,im waiting for my SPM results.while it comes out in March 20+,my parents decided to send me to college in January haha.well thats what alot of parents do anyway.

As i mentioned before ( i think) i  chose the path to get my Law degree at ATC college so at the moment im taking my alevels there 🙂 but before deciding surely about this,i had soooo many different choices haha.Looking back it still shocks me a little,so many paths and sometimes i think what would had happened if i choose the other path.

So.in the beginning of my form 5 days i had NO IDEA what i wanted to do.For a long time ( not including the ambitions i had when i was a kid ahaha i meant those serious ones),i just thought of doing accounting because it’s a profession,and my cousin is a professional accountant and it has a good salary.So i thought i would do that too.and also not to mention the fees to study the course is really cheap compared to science courses.

Being in a science stream gives me a misinterpretion that oohh after form 5 we HAVE to be doing science related or math related course.well i was wrong.so very wrong.

i had that misconception all my high school life and though i had set my mind on accounting,i was not eager to do it.it was just a sorta forceful answer just to have a ”secure” future.there was no spark and i didnt thought it was really a big deal.

But around October onwards,my mindset changed.after getting advice from seniors,experienced relatives,my  add math teacher and my school art teacher,i knew accounting was bullshit for me.ahaha

my art teacher insisted i do design related because she said i was talented in art.but i knew my mother wouldnt allow it.But at one point i was really serious about it.hahah i remembered how when i was younger i would write in every friend’s biography book that i want to be a fashion designer LOL.and i thought  hmm since im so passionate about art and fashion,why not?

I confronted my mother and guess what.. ahaha obviously its a solid NO.hahah though it was the heat of the moment that i wanted to switch from accounting to fashion.I guess what my mom said was through after thinking about it.I would need to be really creative at all times ( i dont create works at times i WANT it just comes naturally) and it will be stressful because there WILL BE people better than you at so many levels.and yeah i can always set up my own label after i’ve accomplished being a professional. as much as i wanted fashion,i had to agree with my mom.

so its now accounting >fashion>accounting.

i thought fine.. it will be accounting again i guess… reluctantly..

and then during my SPM,i went to see my accountant cousin and he told me NOT to.because its very stressful especially for me being a girl and all.and i remembered what my addmaths teacher Mr Ter told me.he said the similiar thing.My cousin suggested me to be a Lawyer,but immediately i said no lol. because of the misconception that Law is all memorizing and history..

but i still went home and thought about it.

I mean i should definitely listen to people who are much more experienced that me right?i mean there was no doubt that i could trust their advices they’re adults i trusted.

so after some research,and lots of thinking.i decided to do law.this time i was sure 🙂 and i had the eagerness inside.just what i was looking for.so i told my parents about it and they were quite happy about it. YEAY

Thinking about my highschool days.i was a really outspoken girl;and in one occasion i was wrongly accused and humiliated in front of my parents,close friends and also some teachers.i will NOT forget that..they pressured us to admit it and it was really unfair.there was no proof.and i was afraid therefore i made a mistake and i admitted it.

damn i got into so much trouble.hahaha

but its over now and im moving on though it still hurts me at times thinking about it.but it gives me motivation to continue to be a lawyer and stand up for myself and for clients.Im going to make up for my mistake of being afraid and bullied.And also i’ve always been a fan of Law and Order SVU,and i really loved the things the DA Casey does.I admire her and she inspires me more to do law.Therefore i am certain about it.thinking that i’ll be doing something Casey does in the future gets me excited at times too 😀

I will win in the end.

hopefully it will get it off my chest for good.Im determined.

so that’s how i got into law schoo 🙂 heh long story huh?since its decided im going to make sure i do well and dont screw up.Im quite sure Law will be more suitable for me than accounting.and Fashion will wait for me in the future 🙂

Thank heavens for leading me into this path 🙂 all the challenges and thinking,im quite amazed it would lead to this great thing

This is the future i chose for myself and i will fulfill it no matter what.LOOK OUT WORLD 😀

-KW- reblogged from blogger

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