March is Suspenseful

Well,i know its been said over and over again,but i still cant believe we’re already in the middle of March.So anyway i just want to say that I really really dont like what Im feeling now.

Yes,i know life’s quite good right now for me.Im already in college,I know what’s my ambition,I’m a healthy relationship,my family relationships are great and much much more.the only thing missing now is knowing my SPM results and my piano exam.

SPM results will be released on the 21st of March,4 more days left from now.I know i tried my best for it,i know i studied my hardest but for some reason,im just scared it doesnt pay off.its like after 3 months since our SPM my confidence level dives into a deep deep hole and the hole gets deeper day after day. My target was 10 As in the beginning of the year.10 would be PERFECT for me.but now,it seems impossible.I think i should lower my expectations.10 is seriously not going to happen for me now.

As of now I would be satisfied if i get 6As and above.I pray i do.if i get more than that,i’ll still be thankful,it’ll be great πŸ™‚ but for now,im not going to put my hopes too high.because when it falls,its going to hurt real bad. So for now,Target shall be set at 6-8,oohh please Buddha D: i hope it comes true,or even better.I dont expect much i just think for all i did i think i deserve to reach my target.Sometimes im just afraid that fate will slap me on the face and go NOPE NOPE YOU’RE JUST GONNA GET 3As or 4As BECAUSE YOU SUCK.AHH i wouldnt cry i hope.but i will sulk for a very very long time.

ahh just cant get my mind off it.I have to be calm.but HOW?D:

I mean the results are already there right?its already set.Just waiting to be released.Also,i have to keep reminding myself that its nothing to be stressed about right?even though the results are not good.in a week or so,life will just go back to normal right?everyone would be busy in college,work,just back to LIFE.I have to keep comforting myself and take my Law Lecturer,Mr Daniel’s advice.

See.my lecturer didnt do well for his SPM and look at him now?living his life,earning well,living well.That’s what he told us,SPM is nothing.What’s important is your degree,dont screw that up,just because you do well in your SPM doesnt mean you’ll be successful.Because in the end we just want to earn well right?and live well.

“SPM did not help me in any way in the end.”-Mr Daniel.

So i shouldnt get so worked up even though i didnt do well right?of course.haha.All this self-comforting lol.

But i do think that’s the way to go.all i can do now is hope for 6 and above :O sighhh hope everything turns out well.And i guess my next post would be about my results.ahaha so it will either be a super emo sad post,or a happy post.we’ll just have to wait.

See this is what i dislike about these periods.its like so suspenseful waiting for the results of an important exam.ITS THE WORST.Therefore,i cannot WAIT for it to be over.i really cant.ITS SO CLOSE!

try not to cry,Kah Wei,maybe the results might not be what i wanted but it will bring me to somewhere in my life?just like how my UPSR results and PMR results did.i would have been totally different and mixed with totally different friends if i had scored full As for those 2 exams,i swear.

Good luck my fellow mates! ( thought luck is not required as the results are already set) siggh REVEAL YOURSELF!

Be strong Kah Wei! ;(

6 and above 6 and above!! D’:



The Future I Choose for myself

From a very young age ,almost all of us have been pressured by our parents to be someone successful in the future right? i mean that’s at least what i’ve been through almost all my life.Go to school,study hard do well in exams,get them scholarships,(or at least try to) go to college,get a degree,choose a profession,graduate (with the square hat and robe lol) and there~ we will live a somewhat ”comfortable” life right?

Anyways,I didnt do too bad during my government school days,up until highschool, i always tried to keep it up,though i got involved in like some sports and busy with art club this and that,in the end,it all comes down to those final exam results that my parents would keep track on.so yea.

At the moment,im waiting for my SPM results.while it comes out in March 20+,my parents decided to send me to college in January haha.well thats what alot of parents do anyway.

As i mentioned before ( i think) i Β chose the path to get my Law degree at ATC college so at the moment im taking my alevels there πŸ™‚ but before deciding surely about this,i had soooo many different choices haha.Looking back it still shocks me a little,so many paths and sometimes i think what would had happened if i choose the other path.

So.in the beginning of my form 5 days i had NO IDEA what i wanted to do.For a long time ( not including the ambitions i had when i was a kid ahaha i meant those serious ones),i just thought of doing accounting because it’s a profession,and my cousin is a professional accountant and it has a good salary.So i thought i would do that too.and also not to mention the fees to study the course is really cheap compared to science courses.

Being in a science stream gives me a misinterpretion that oohh after form 5 we HAVE to be doing science related or math related course.well i was wrong.so very wrong.

i had that misconception all my high school life and though i had set my mind on accounting,i was not eager to do it.it was just a sorta forceful answer just to have a ”secure” future.there was no spark and i didnt thought it was really a big deal.

But around October onwards,my mindset changed.after getting advice from seniors,experienced relatives,my Β add math teacher and my school art teacher,i knew accounting was bullshit for me.ahaha

my art teacher insisted i do design related because she said i was talented in art.but i knew my mother wouldnt allow it.But at one point i was really serious about it.hahah i remembered how when i was younger i would write in every friend’s biography book that i want to be a fashion designer LOL.and i thought Β hmm since im so passionate about art and fashion,why not?

I confronted my mother and guess what.. ahaha obviously its a solid NO.hahah though it was the heat of the moment that i wanted to switch from accounting to fashion.I guess what my mom said was through after thinking about it.I would need to be really creative at all times ( i dont create works at times i WANT it just comes naturally) and it will be stressful because there WILL BE people better than you at so many levels.and yeah i can always set up my own label after i’ve accomplished being a professional. as much as i wanted fashion,i had to agree with my mom.

so its now accounting >fashion>accounting.

i thought fine.. it will be accounting again i guess… reluctantly..

and then during my SPM,i went to see my accountant cousin and he told me NOT to.because its very stressful especially for me being a girl and all.and i remembered what my addmaths teacher Mr Ter told me.he said the similiar thing.My cousin suggested me to be a Lawyer,but immediately i said no lol. because of the misconception that Law is all memorizing and history..

but i still went home and thought about it.

I mean i should definitely listen to people who are much more experienced that me right?i mean there was no doubt that i could trust their advices they’re adults i trusted.

so after some research,and lots of thinking.i decided to do law.this time i was sure πŸ™‚ and i had the eagerness inside.just what i was looking for.so i told my parents about it and they were quite happy about it. YEAY

Thinking about my highschool days.i was a really outspoken girl;and in one occasion i was wrongly accused and humiliated in front of my parents,close friends and also some teachers.i will NOT forget that..they pressured us to admit it and it was really unfair.there was no proof.and i was afraid therefore i made a mistake and i admitted it.

damn i got into so much trouble.hahaha

but its over now and im moving on though it still hurts me at times thinking about it.but it gives me motivation to continue to be a lawyer and stand up for myself and for clients.Im going to make up for my mistake of being afraid and bullied.And also i’ve always been a fan of Law and Order SVU,and i really loved the things the DA Casey does.I admire her and she inspires me more to do law.Therefore i am certain about it.thinking that i’ll be doing something Casey does in the future gets me excited at times too πŸ˜€

I will win in the end.

hopefully it will get it off my chest for good.Im determined.

so that’s how i got into law schoo πŸ™‚ heh long story huh?since its decided im going to make sure i do well and dont screw up.Im quite sure Law will be more suitable for me than accounting.and Fashion will wait for me in the future πŸ™‚

Thank heavens for leading me into this path πŸ™‚ all the challenges and thinking,im quite amazed it would lead to this great thing

This is the future i chose for myself and i will fulfill it no matter what.LOOK OUT WORLD πŸ˜€

-KW- reblogged from blogger


This is Me

Β  Hello readers,let me introduce myself.My name’s Kah Wei πŸ™‚ I’m 18 years old this year and I’m from Malaysia.Im currently doing my A-levels in a Law school,planning to get my Law degree and all.

Β I’ve been blogging since i was 13 and i have a blogger account.I absolutely love blogging and i’m the kind of person that loves colour,art and being expressive.

I’m really emotional and I do sports too,volleyball was my passion when i was in high school and i love to find inspiration in everything i do and the people around me.I love trying new things and i have a thing for colourful things ;D

I’m open to any philosopher’s theories and I do love reading about different cultures,traditions,clothings and history.I’m not an expert in any of those fields but i do enjoy reading about them.

My goal in life is to make full use of my days on earth and make the best out of everything,I procrastinate aaaloottt but once in a while i’ll get the drive to be really productive and i wish to do that often πŸ˜€

So,hope you readers would enjoy my blog and yeah πŸ˜€ especially those that know me in real life hahah

Have a nice day!